vent.

So mad right now. Why? because of my BF. I haven't talked to him all day today and just now I finally spoke to him. I have a few reason why I am mad, 1 he hasn't called me. 2, why do I have to be the one that always have to make the call. 3, he didn't tell me he was going to Elk Grove to his moms house. 4, his excuse was fucking lame! Man, I honestly don't even know anymore. If this is how he is going to treat me this way then I believe this relationship isn't going to work out anymore. I feel like I am the one making the efforts in this relationship. I'm the one who's calling and asking "How was your day?" or "What are you doing?" or "Do you want the hang?" psssh He doesn't even do that. The only time he would call me is when he wants something, needs to ask a question, or he is outside of my house. Ugh whatever! Just thinking about him makes me so mad! When I heard his lame excuse I just straight up hanged up phone.

He is there because of course tomorrow is mother's day. I'm upset because he didn't call to tell me or bother to ask me if I wanted go. I wouldn't went anyways but it's the thought that counts. It's all about honesty in the relationship and this relationship isn't close to honesty! I feel like he is always hiding something from me. I can just tell. I am not stupid. Yeah, at least he told me he was in Elk Grove but you should of just told me that before he went. I mean c'mon, it only takes a FEW seconds to call me.

I am going to give him the cold shoulder now. I am going to try to ignore him, that's if he even calls me...

thanks for listening.

"making changes."

Ello. I had a wonderful day today. I made some delicious Alfredo with shrimp, mushrooms, turkey dog, and tomatoes, very yummy I say.

Today I went on a shopping spree with my Mom at Kohls. Kohls is having a sale this weekend for Mother's Day. My Mom got to nice black blouse's and a pair of jeans. My Mom got my sister a pair of jeans and I got a romper. I am really diggin' romper's right now. They are so in style for spring and summer. They are so comfortable.

So, I finally spoke to my bf. He gave me one of his top 3 excuses, "My phone was on silent" pssssh! Whatever.

I am going to have to make this post short. It's already 4:05 am and I need my beauty rest. :D

"...doing nothing with my life."

I can't even remember the last time I was on here. Well, here I go, I got so much to "type"

I believe the last thing I posted was about my ticket? Well, I still have it. Long story short.... I went to court, seen the judge, gave me volunteer work and to pay $109 for traffic school, finish volunteer work, went to turn letter of completion, court wouldn't take it because I didn't have the $109 so they extended my due date and now I am trying to get $. It's so damn hard to get money right now, since I am friggin JOBLESS! Oh and it gets worse, I can't go job hunting just yet because I don't have any kind of identification! I can't even get $28 to renew my drivers license. Yup, that's my life!

On the good note I am going back to school in summer. Hooray for me! To register I would need to get my high school transcript, I hope getting it wouldn't involve showing my ID if it does then I am going to have to postpone going back to school.

Now, time to vent... I need to start getting my life back on track. I've been doing nothing with my life for a year and a hald now. I don't want to be that "person" anymore who receives charity money from family and friends. I want to be able to help my parents financially. When I see them struggle with the bills, it makes my so sad that I can't help. My parents are getting old and by now I should helping out and be the one taking care of the bills but, I'M NOT! That is what is motivating me to get my life on track, my family...

Boyfriend time... I don't even know where to start. We are good, I guess. There are days where he would uhm ignore me for a day or so. Every time I hear from him, his 3 main excuses would be "My phone was on silent." "I don't know." "I was busy, didn't have the time to call back." This only happens when he is hanging with his bro or when he get's into this mood where he doesen't want to be around nobody. I don't even know what to say to him anymore.

wow it's 5:30 am! Alright I need to get my beauty sleep.